My Mami has Dementia

My Mami has Dementia 

My mami has dementia

she’ll never be the same again

she’s happy when she’s having fun

and always wins at games

She lives in/for the present moment 

and is not aware of time

obsesses on what she wants to do

and always wants her way

She makes up stories and believes them

will not admit she’s wrong

never wants to say, I’m sorry

throws a tantrum to express her way

Possessive, she won’t share her things

not trusting, she won’t accept the new

forgets when she hurts others feelings

believes herself and not what others say

She wants to keep her independence

and won’t admit her needs

not want to bathe or brush her teeth

will wear the same clothes every day

She hides her stuff and then denies it

fears people will take her things

she is afraid that we will leave her

that one day she will lose her way

No matter how my mami is  

she’s loved me all my years

I'll always do my best for her

like she always did for me 

50 years ago!

I wrote this while spending a week taking care of my mother.  She's had dementia for some years but still lives in her own house.

Read this other post I wrote about how we took away her car at 90 years old!! http://filledwithretirement.blogspot.com/2013/05/90-and-with-dementia-means-no-more_8.html

2014 You won't believe what happened to me!

My year Reflection 2014

2014 has come and gone. 

It went so fast, and yet so slow

with three surgeries on my bones. 

The hip replacement was my choice because of all the pain

But both my wrists! I did not want, how silly that I fell. 

Some scary time recovery is, because there's no control.  

Tired, frustrated, and disabled, it's normalcy I miss. 

I read more books this year than ever, with so much time to spare.  

Some helped me grow in health and spirit 

and some were just to cheer me. 

Because I could not hold a book my audiobooks were many. 

 I'd fall asleep with earbuds on, the timer set for thirty. 

I tried to think no scary thoughts, I could not use my hands.  

And now I’m thankful and rejoice to brush my teeth, and use my pens.

The nurse and cook this year was Don, 

he missed his fishing with all the chores.  

Supporter and encourager, he helped me, loving me and more!

And now, I pray for health and fun, 

with blessings and graces as this year comes. 

No doctor’s visits please, for me or Don and all of mine. 

There's more to share and do and care, 

we thank you God for a year of prayer!